I know how I feel, but their words drown out my voice.
I know what has happened, but they say I’m making it up.
I know what I have seen, I know it and I will never shut up.
It’s just sensory overload
You’re just displacing your fear
This is a simple case of, “_____”
maybe “it’s Just” what I’m telling you it is.
perhaps I know what I’m experiencing
“The social worker thinks it’d be a good idea to get you into counseling”
Have I not been saying that for three years?
Listen to me.
Just fucking listen to me.
I know how I feel, I know what I’ve seen, stop doubting me.
I’ve come to terms that you don’t listen, my words are like wind to you,
they pass quickly and you don’t notice them.
my words are like the sound of a subway passing,
quick and you’ll soon forget them.
I swear to god, some strangers notice my suffering more than you have,
and don’t tell me that this is my fault.
I didn’t bring this on. I didn’t call CPS.
Please someone, tell me this isn’t normal.
Please tell me that being yelled at, accused,
please tell me I’m not just too sensitive.
I need reassurance that I’m not just a weak kid who
doesn’t understand the world.
I need someone to tell me I’m not crazy.
I need someone to reassure me that this is not regular.
That having Child Protection Services at your house is irregular.
That being screamed at and blamed is unusual.
I need to know I’m not just exaggerating,
I need to know that I will be okay,
I need to know that this isn’t all me..